Thursday, 30 May 2013

My Story of Persecution: Chapter 3- War of the Dentons( unfinished)


 
Chapter Three :The War of the Dentons

( Countdown to an Execution) : A chronology of Events

To put this complex narrative into some kind of order ; I've decided to enlighten the reader to what happened and when. What happened was a gradual escalation of events that broke out into OPEN WAR! This was no ordinary marriage and family breakdown, nor your average acrimonious divorce and custody struggle- this was a bloodfeud- a war- a v for vendetta !This war sucked in more and more people into its vortex as time went on; until the spiral of disaster led to a crown court trial...and from there it descended into the darkest abyss!

My ex wife knew what she wanted from the outset of this “ war of the Dentons” in February 2008. She wanted revenge...revenge...revenge...pure and simple. In Slavic cultures its called “ duvka” or vendetta unto death...In practical terms it was a struggle for power- domination- control...but also of hate -revenge- and cursing.... it was very personal.

Throughout the Balkans – and even in small villages in Anatolia; these feuds sometimes go back hundreds if not thousands of years- sometimes ending in genocide and ethnic cleansing...but these blood feuds whether its emanating from the enmity of the children of Ishmael towards the children of Isaac or the descendants of Jacob against Esau are all deeply rooted in tribal psyches..and not only was my wife tribal- but she was also primal.

Hell hath no fury than a woman scorned!”

As a Christian believer I am supposed to lay aside these things and strive for a higher path. Jesus says we should LOVE our enemies – BLESS those who curse us; and PRAY for those who persecute us. What this means is by not taking up the sword , I become the victim... my strategy was to HOPE that through the courts this family dispute or feud would be resolved.

But as time progressed I began to realize that I had been targetted for persecution and for prosecution. This is why its vital to understand the sequence of events that took place in chronological order.

I shall begin with my wifes affair – we were renting a 10 bedroom house in Wembley from 2004-2006.It was there that my ex wife befriended a lodger from Slovakia named Jan Hic.

There was at this time another Polish female lodger called Dominika Szechplik – she was a pretty loose woman about 28 years old who had slept with most of the single men in the house and her Asian employers. One day she came to me and said she fancied this guy called Jan- Jan was a charismatic suave looking guy with a questionable background who claimed he had been in the French Foreign legion- he was a bit of a conman- but he paid the rent. I could see he had leadership capacity and watched his movements with interest.
I introduced Jan to Dominika and they had a one night stand. I even gave him a lift to Dominica's place ( she had moved out) where he stayed the night-

The next day she started bragging to my wifes sister ( Elzbieta -Ella-Baran) and to my wife Ewelina about what wonderful sex she had had and how large his penis was... And to be fair this guy was a smooth customer. Later on I noticed my wife and Jan flirting with each other- she had done this before in Israel with a Dutch guy- but I tried to ignore it and give it no energy.

I must say with ALL my heart my wife – my wife was NEVER lonely- sad maybe – but NEVER lonely. She had at least 15-20 people or more coming and going everyday in and out of the house...many people to talk to plus she had her children and her friends and family. No,this was a pure case of sexual attraction- fatal attraction- she just fancied him pure and simple. The only thing missing in this scenario was the opportunity to have a fullon liason- and the place to do it in.... before too long the universe provided both time- place and opportunity.

In December 2005 I took another house in Wembley. We moved there as a family in 2006 – January ...it was a great blessing from God – I took the opportunity to take my son on a holiday to Sinai- Egypt. All my wife had to do was close up our affairs in the 10 roomed house and move to our new home. We had money … we were prospering... my wife was neither sad nor lonely.

Later she claimed she did it so I would divorce her for adultery. The truth is she felt ashamed and guilty for her betrayal at a moment when things were very well for our family. The kids were going to school- we were making money and everyone was healthy and happy.

This feeling of worthlessness and guilt stemmed form her adultery – not because as she claimed because of the anal sex or domestic violence. This is rubbish.

Looking back now I probably should not have gone to Egypt when I did- it was a transitional time from one home to another...we had problems with the Pakistani landlord Mr Choudry who didn't want to return our deposit and the lodgers were giving us trouble as well. She probably couldn't handle the extra stress. I must say this- this room renting business was her responsibility- it was something for her to do and I wanted her to learn how to run a household. From my part I acknowledge my mistake... but it certainly was not motivated form selfishness.
I felt at the time that she had enough support to get through this crisis alone. I was only gone for 6 weeks. I had instructed a friend Mr. Leslie Lubelle ( the next door neighbor) to watch over the place- and my wife...In fact my last words before I left for Frankfurt for Sharm El Sheikh were :

Ewelina, if you cant handle things – I will cancel my mission immediately!”

My mission to Egypt was extremely successful – I organized the 1st World Healing Retreat in the Middle East – made a short film entitled “ Into The Rubicon” and spent quality time bonding with my son Jeremias.

2006 was a year where many of my dreams came true. Dreams I had been working on for years over 20 years in fact. I was a convener – a “ focaliser”of rainbow peace& love gatherings- Juggling those commitments with work and family life was very difficult. It meant sacrifice. But I believed that my primary vocation was as an evangelist – Ewelina my wife knew this was the man she had fell in love with and married- I was a Christian, a Rainbow Warrior and traveler long before I met her. It was already in my DNA. Perhaps it was selfish...perhaps even egocentric...but that is the nature of a man...a man must do what a man must do...
Throughout history “ selfish- egotistic” men from Buddha -Jesus and Mohammed to Richard The Lionheart, Alexander the Great to Adolf Hitler- Mahatma Gandhi to Nelson Mandela- Einstein to Martin Luther King – Howard Hughes to Neil Armstrong-Abraham Lincoln-JFK- Robin Knox Johnson to Sir Edmund Hillary and Roald Amundsen and David Livingstone- David Attenborough- William the Conqueror and William Carey...Oscar Wilde- John Bunyan- Leo Tolstoy – Louis Pasteur- Elon Musk and yes- even Trotsky... all great men and women have shared a common fire that burns in their hearts to accomplish their destiny- what the universe has planet deep within their souls.
All great persons strive to express their greatness. And this often means they have to make difficult personal decisions. Decisions that lead them often to bankruptcy- ridicule- imprisonment- divorce-martyrdom- exile and even assassination and death. Choices that separate them from their loved ones, their freedom and acceptance from mainstream society... this is what really distinguishes a GREAT man from a FAILED man...his drive – his sacrifice...and yes, even his ego. But it is these true actions of a driven man that turn mediocrity into sheer greatness and indeed ...history itself.
Being normal for a driven man is never an option and if it were so human achievement would remain undiscovered- potential untapped and exploits uncommon...
So are these actions done for the “greater good” , selfish...egotistical- NO! … they are HONEST!

There is no greater crime than a wasted life. Sometimes true courage requires great personal sacrifice. Someone has to do it. If not you- then WHO?!- if not NOW...then WHEN?!

And it is in this context that I acted to organise these peace gatherings in Egypt- Jordan-Turkey- England – Russia and South Africa. I had been involved in the Rainbow Movement for 25 years and as an evangelist and activist my goals and agenda define my destiny. How I live is important to me. As a family man I was also committed by a covenant I had made to God to honor my marriage and my family. I had provided for my children and my wife as any man would...

2006 was a busy year. After Egypt I focalised meetings in Turkey- Bosnia- Altai-England- Spain- and Jordan. The England Gathering was a very difficult one and took a year of constant monthly meetings every full moon and almost daily communications via the Internet -face to face and telephone... at the same time I was concerned about my son Jeremias as he was being bullied at school.

I had also started a blog for airships and an association based in Berlin ( “ AIRSHIPWORLD”)
My wife began to feel she was a bit part in this movie I was in... although she did design the invitation of the England gathering. These feelings of inadequacy eventually turned into envy- jealousy-frustration and yes...even resentment and hatred. She felt she was losing control of her life and her children...and she felt the need to dominate and control me as a result. She would stand at the bottom of the stairs every night in her silk nightgown and call me up to bed to have sex with her... demanding me to come... but I simply did not feel like it... I was dealing with my own demons ( midlife crisis- bills etc)-
I started to put on weight – drinking more- and arguing with my wife over trivial things...sex became boring- instead I converted my sexual energy into my work as a gardener and the time on the computer increased... we were going in separate directions each day... trust was no longer there... subconsciously I felt far away form my wife... a marriage breakdown usually builds up over time its rarely a 5 minute thing. My wife all this time was hiding the affair from me.

In August 2006 I hired a bus and set up camp in Yorkshire near Skipton. The Rainbow Gathering attracted about 5000 over the month and a half that it was going on... they came from all over the world and from all over the British isles. I set up the “ Jesus Camp” with a 12 man tent I had recently bought for the purpose. A missionary group called “ The Family” joined us. It was at this gathering that two important events took place which later had a bearing on my prosecution.

The first event was a fight my wife had with another woman who claimed she was a witch and that Christianity had ruined her life- and her sons life. She stole the flags we had put up and a fight then ensued.
The second event was the twisting of my knee whilst doing a Zulu Dance in the main food circle after the meal. I had to in fact be carried off on a stretcher to the tent I was staying in. On the way there I was being attended by two doctors from Austria and Germany. I couldn't walk it was that painful.
My daughter Anastasia saw me in pain and thought I was going to die- she said: “ If my daddy dies and goes to Jesus , I wanna go with him...I don't want to live without my daddy!” She was crying for her father and it touched my heart very deeply as nothing else that could.

To a father and daughter with this level of love between them – this was the greatest honor I could possibly hope for and I even started to cry- not from the pain( even though it was great)- from the love she had for me. And to a jealous wife looking on... this was the start of the envious – possessive seed that began to germinate in the heart of my wife and to which I shall refer to at a later stage.

When I returned to London I went to the doctor who recommended an Xray and a possible surgical procedure. After around tow weeks I felt better enough to wlak and decided to risk going to the Altai Mountains in Siberia. I thought the wound would heal and I would be fit enough to endure this trip despite my recent injury. I also went to visit some old friends in Moscow and to sign a contract for an agency deal for Rosaero systems to sell their products in Africa.

Early in October , 2006 I returned from Russia. I recall twisting my knee on a walk in the Altai mountains whilst trying to view Mount Belucha in Kazakhstan- in fact I recall twisting my knee again in the living room( on my return from Russia )-whilst dancing to a Victor Tsoi song. I recall beign advised by my doctor to rest and support the knee and NOT to exert the left knee in any way. This was crucial evidence that was very important and was NEVER used at my trial depsite my instructions to my solicitor Daryl Ingram & Co. They just did not care...in fact my own solicitor thought I was guilty and didn't go the extra mile on purpose!

So the inept barrister – Laura Brickman and the bigot judge both didn't give a damn whether or not I got a fair trial... it was all a frame up...a conspiracy... they were simply going through the motions.

On or about Friday , October 6th , 2006 my wife confessed to an affair lasting around 6 months. She confessed to this affair after I had confessed to having a one night stand with a Russian doctor.

It was decided – amicably I might add... that the state of our marriage was at boiling point ; and my wife agreed to stay with a friend for a few days... ( Marie Donata)- Despite everything said against me – I did not beat her or strike her...I simply needed time to digest these revelations – I may have said...”Thats it – from today no more domestic violence-”- (meaning I did not want to solve the problem violently as she might have expected I would- why because she expected a reaction- and I simply would not give her the pleasure- I was tired.)...My wife returned the next day- begging me to take her back... she said: “ If you send me away – I'll understand – only let me see the children from time to time!”

I thought about it for a moment ( it was a Saturday morning): “ Ewelina, you are the mother of the children- how could I possibly send you away?”
She asked me what she should do. I responded by saying : “ Ewelina , I forgive you ; but I want you to cut from this man...delete his number and his email...and I want to know all the details of your affair.” She agreed...we kissed and I let her in the house again.

But the truth is she didn't tell me the whole truth at all. She continued to lie. She had slept with this guy in a local travel lodge and in a local park ( she even took me to the bench where they had made love)- but it turned out to be a fabrication... I believed her... she said she had made love – on a cold February night... on a public park bench!She said she was drunk at the time.

At the time I wanted to believe her. I tried to move into the place of forgiveness- but something inside me didn't believe her...I felt less and less sexually attracted to her as the days went by. It is important to note here that the real truth only came out next year in May 2007. This never came out at trial. It was like everything exonerating me ...suppressed.

This is an important incident as it shows that the prosecutions assertions were wrong ….its simple.... a wife commits adultery in a hotel is less likely to cause outrage as an affair committed in the marital home and in the marital bed- defiling both. By deduction a crime of passion is the motivation of an alleged rape..

There were arguments in our marriage- just like any marriage.... there were accusations and counter accusations... but there was NO rape...nor was there extreme domestic violence – certainly not on my part. The days following her confession were an attempt to strengthen and normalise relations...we went to church that Sunday ( Oct 8th) – I took the kids out of school on the Monday and Tuesday ( because I felt we needed healing family time)- We went on a Tuesday to Alton Towers , its a 5 hour journey there and back....and , there were multiple bumpy rollercoaster rides... and yes...I even video taped our outing...( with Ewelina having long hair)...My barrister,Laura Brickman and solicitor- Sarj Patel even got that fact wrong!...that was crucial because they showed the video at the trial...but it wasn't dated!- I've made a timeline which will put it all into perspective.

In the bedroom things were not normal...but I didn't beat her as she claimed I did ( we had lodgers and they would have heard it- our walls were thin plasterboard)... and I certainly didn't rape her...I do remember when we had consensual anal sex – it was probably around the first or second week of October , 2006. As I had mentioned earlier; it was something we had talked about doing for years...but had never tried.

After the affair was out on the open we agreed to actively try to improve our sex life – and it was agreed that we would try anal sex to start off with. It was with the idea of spicing up our marriage and adding a new dimension to our bedroom life. I will go into this in detail at a later stage.

What I can say for sure was that the affair was the catalyst for this “ new deal” in the bedroom. My wife consented to six acts of anal sex because she “ deserved it-I dont know if this was just pillow talk to get me excited or if she actually believed what she was saying...I realize now that she probably meant it.

The reason it was the number six is because she confessed she had slet with this guy six times. My wife also consented to oral sex for the very first time in our marriage. This occurred around January 2007 after my return from Jordan. During this time she had exposed herself on skype – showing her boobs to me – and dared me to “ punish her”...again, I will go into this at a later stage.
Following the chronology of events after I returned from Russia I remember my knee needed medical attention- I went to the doctor and I bought a knee brace...X- RAYS will confirm this( in fact I got the x rays form the hospital but again- this evidence was suppressed) … and here comes the point...a brutal- sustained and VIOLENT sexual act that puts strain on a severely injured knee would have been practically impossible as I was already in pain having injured it the previous week. In fact some time later I needed an ACL operation because the ligament was actually torn.

On the evening of the 12th October my ex wife awoke in the middle of the night – went to the dresser table – took a pair of large scissors from the drawer ...and then in complete darkness … she cut off all her hair.

In the morning when she realized what she had done and saw her short hair... she looked at me in shock and said: “ Robin- why did you cut my hair? “ I replied: “ Ewelina...you cut your own hair...I didn't cut it....!”



At first she didn't believe me ...I then described to her what had happened – she then said: “ The devil made me do it... “I'm sick Robin...take me to mental hospital...I need to go to hospital for sick people!” At this point her eyes were bulging out of her sockets like a goldfish... the pupils were dilated ...and I was scared and confused. I honestly did not know what to do. At this point I phoned a Dr. Peter Parnes who is a criminal psychologist... he recommended I take her immediately to a GP. ( General practitioner)...and this is what I did...

I could have taken her to the nearby Northwick Park A &E and they would have probably sectioned her for 30 days if I had told them what I had witnessed in that bedroom. But I didn't...I kept my mouth shut. 

So I took my wife to the doctors rooms of Dr Jilali – but Ewelina refused to get out of the Suzuki I was driving... Eventually I persuaded the doctor to come out to the car and speak to her... this was on Friday, October 13th, 2006. Later I too my wife to a proper hairdressers in Golders Green and some Albanian hairdressers charged me £40 for the privilege.

My only conclusion after all of this was that my wife was feeling an overwhelming – and I might add -warranted sense of worthlessness and guilt over the affair- why? Because the Holy Spirit had convicted her of her sin and she had lied to me and to the Holy Spirit... she had sinned against the Holy Spirit rather than come clean once and for all with the full truth. And once she had done it once... she continued on this path...this is why she felt guilty and worthless.

SHE HAD A DEVIL IN HER THAT WOULDNT COME OUT AND WOULDNT TELL THE TRUTH!AN EVIL SPIRIT. SHE WAS POSSESSED! ( Again – I will address this later on in the book in detail)

Despite her strange behavior and requests to be admitted into a mental institution ; I believed all she needed was some rest. I then told my wife we should take off our wedding rings until we could renew our marriage vows...in fact a pastor Uche and his wife agreed to marry us in his church we were attending- joyful assemblies.

I at this time thought it was best and better to do it on our return to Africa. We then made a plan to return to South Africa and become full-time missionaries with a Christian group called YWAM- ( Youth with a Mission)

In fact we even bought a wedding dress. I bought my wife some jewelery in Israel from a boutique shop- red ruby crystal I think it was – a beautiful necklace for the love of my life. We went to the theater ...dinner... we went to see the comedy play- “ The Producers” a play based on the movie written by Mel Brooks ( “Springtime for Hitler & Germany!“)...

In January 2007 Ewelina visited a psychiatrist for the first time. I was in Jordan a the 1st Oriental Rainbow Gathering ...it was a complete success. I took my son with me and he throughly enjoyed it... learning bush-craft and a few magic tricks from some Japanese travelers.... everyone loved Jeremias...(He loved climbing and walking and I wanted to school him in leadership)- and even lately when I returned to the Holy Land after 6 years – they asked me: “Wheres your son?” All I could say was: “ I don't know!- I haven't seen him for over 5 years!

In February 2007 I went to South Africa to initiate the process of our return- I spent nearly 2 months in Africa preparing the way. I bought a Mercedes Benz in Cape Town and drove it up to Durban- I scouted possible homes and made connections with some local ministries- all in preparation for our imminent emigration. In March of 2007 I returned to England. Everything was going well and it seemed even our relationship was beginning to improve.

It was on my return from Africa that Ewelina dropped another bombshell. She had brought her lover or lovers to the marital bed. She had defiled the marital home and bed. She had not told the truth about the affair despite being asked to. Arguments inevitably ensued. We tried marriage counseling – Ewelina had one of her “ breakdowns”- this time I suggested she go for a holiday to Spain. She did.

I tried to look introspectively to see if I were the one putting too much strain on Ewelina...I came to the conclusion that she needed a break to recharge her batteries. I honestly don't know what she was telling was true and what was not... she had a problem confronting the truth... she would rather lie about it and play the victim that tell the truth- that is and always has been ...her character... and I must admit... shes a damn good liar! She certainly fooled me.

It was during this time that my relationship with my daughter grew and I began to show her more attention and love as her father. Anastasia in character was very much like me. Impetuous, fierce,passionate...original. But also a stubborn and strong personality. Our bond as Father and daughter grew ever deeper during this time when the bond of trust between my wife and I began to deteriorate. I simply could not believe anything my wife said as I kept finding out something new which she had “ forgotten “ to tell me. Her later excuse was that she was afraid of me that I would hurt her... this of course was totally untrue.

I JUST DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE ANYMORE.

I felt increasingly cold towards Ewelina my relationship with Anastasia grew closer- and this in turn empowered Anastasia to become more assertive with my wife when she was bullied. When Ewelina began feeling dis-empowered she began to grow envious and jealous of my ( natural ) relationship of paternal love with my daughter. In fact she felt more and more insecure within herself and more and more jealous and possessive to anything and anyone I gave my love and my attention to...even my computer!
She sought to manipulate- dominate and control me and my children through her abusive behavior and frequent mental breakdowns bipolar episodes... as a result we as a family all suffered from her emotional, physical and mental domestic violence.

I will go into this into finer detail later on in another chapter.

My wife returned refreshed from Spain. I continued to work as a gardener in my company “ Shalom Gardens”...my knee seemed to have healed so I decided not to go for an operation...

Around August I went to Bosnia and Croatia. I again furthered my peace-work and visions for peace in the Balkans. I also assisted to bring about the vision of an Iberian Rainbow Family. On my return I decided it was time we prepared in earnest for our imminent return to South Africa.

We started by visiting a Christian Homeschooling Academy in Swindon. My wife was in complete agreement with me and came to the seminar to learn more. Later on we started our own “ Rainbow School in our living room... I'll come to that later.

In October, 2007 I went to Kenya – Uganda and Tanzania...on a mission to help save a childrens home in the townships of Kampala. The mission was successful and it was documented on my sony video camera...Later this event was used against me to strengthen the argument that I was a paedophile( sic).
This trip to East Africa was the groundwork of my future plans in the region to create a Volunteers Hostel Franchise.

My initial vision for Uganda was to purchase a large tract of farmland to set up an ecovillage and community. I believed and still do that East Africa is a key place to developing greater understanding of the human condition and its relationship with the Earth and all its beings.
My vision included the set up of an International Volunteer Hostel and Peace Academy in the foothills of Kilimanjaro near Arusha in Tanzania. To this effect I had meetings with prominent businessmen and politicians including the ex Minister of Education of Uganda- I met them through my contact with GEM – a global network of entrepreneurs and educators.

It was at this meeting at the Hotel Speke where I was to meet with Dr. Babu that I stepped offf the pavement and into a pothole- the streetlighting was not very good... and promptly ruptured my left knee completely. I was in terrible pain and could not even get up off the ground. Fortunately , a Japnese student and her friend came to assist me and I carried off the meeting by controlling the pain with a few double gins and tonic and paracetamol.

The following day I got on the bus to Mombassa and back to Britain. I was in a lot of pain.

On my return to the UK I went straight to the doctor- he urged immediate surgery as I had ruptured a ligament in my left knee- its called an ACL injury. ( Accruciated ligament)- Initially I had an arthroscopy in early November at the Northwick Park Hospital.

Definition:

arthroscopy (also called arthroscopic surgery) is a minimally invasive surgical procedure in which an examination and sometimes treatment of damage of the interior of a joint is performed using an arthroscope, a type of endoscope that is inserted into the joint through a small incision. Arthroscopic procedures can be performed either to evaluate or to treat many orthopaedic conditions including torn floating cartilage, torn surface cartilage, ACL reconstruction, and trimming damaged cartilage.


I was still deeply in love with my wife- despite all that had happened...there was no beatings as she has alleged. This was a fabrication. Our relationship was actually pretty good- she even bought me a computer an apple mac for £2000 from PC world.

I had made a vow to God to take this woman as my wife for better or for worse- for richer or for poorer...in sickness and health...til death do us part!...

It was however, a relationship of fire vs wind... earth vs water... we were as I understood it... one person- united by God in Holy Marriage- One flesh- indivisible. And our characters whilst at times poles apart- were grounded in our genuine love for our children and for each other. My would give her anything she asked me...except one thing... a divorce. I was prepared to work through any difference between us with the Love of God – grace and forgiveness....and a lot of patience and prayer. I was determined to keep the family together at all costs...even my own humiliation.

I had made a promise to God to love her as Christ loved the Church and to lay my life down for her if necessary...( but I wouldn't divorce her)...that day would soon come when that promise was tested and with it my faith in God.
In December 2007 , we went on a months family holiday in my Volvo to Poland. We spent a week in the small village of Nawynchov- we visited my wifes parents in Jacmierz- South Eastern Poland.
My thinking was thats since we were leaving Europe for good , it would be good for the children to see their grandparents – Josef and Kristina Sienczak for the last time.

I also believed we needed some family time together away from London and its pressures. It would be a time to heal any rifts between us. It was – however, not to be... my wifes fear of the future, her dark paranoid phobias and insecurities- her unstable thoughts and the demons that plagued her and fed into her psyche... all came to a head in a so called “ dream from God”.

At this point I still didn't fully trust my wife- I still believed she was hiding something from me... another dark secret.... perhaps another affair- perhaps a tale of child abuse...I didn't know what.
Maybe she didn't really want to serve God as a missionary in Africa after all. Perhaps she was planning something- We argued a lot and the arguments took their toll on both of us.

I kept telling her- begging her... “ STOP THIS WAR !”I said- “ tell me the truth.... what are you hiding form me...? In the end I realized if she wanted to continue playing mind games with me- I would too! And this was a whole new dimension of our marriage war.

The “War of the Dentons” had begun...

And so I led her on and fed into her paranoia and her fear... I mad eher belive all her fears were true.... perhaps then I could smoke her out I thought and she would blurt out the truth about who she was fucking behind my back!... who else...!

But she didn't

Its true, I was also paranoid too... stressed ...and frankly losing my patience!- Who wouldn't – I was tired of these mind games. We were financially challenged too. We needed to make money for the journey- fast! Our marriage was on the point of collapse.... It was on the rocks... and we were struggling to save it.... Because of my knee injury , I was unable to do much physical work in the garden. I had been on and off crutches at various points since the initial injury in August of 2006.

Instead, we rented out an extra room in the house to make up for the shortfall. I went to Northwick Park hospital in January to do a medical trial with Paraxel- and almost got poisoned I might add. This medical trial was for a drug to help cocaine addicts – but they gave us too strong a dose and everyone vomited profusely... I earned £ 2100- even though I couldn't do physical work in the garden- I was determined to provide for my family... Ewelina could have also done a trial – But I never forced her or coerced her... it was always her decision. I did my job as the man of the house.

The airtickets to South Africa were booked for January 12th , 2008- out of Gatwick. We had planned that my wife and kids would fly out first- at the last moment our invite to YWAM was postponed. Friends said they couldn't help with accommodation and my parents of course...refused.

My wife got more paranoid and listened to “ friends” advice that I was trying to get rid of her... take the kids and marry someone else waiting in the wings... “the final solution”- my wife felt she wasn't wanted and she wasn't appreciated – for whatever reason...and her inadequacy and jealousy- paranoia and fear turned into hostility and outright hate....she felt like she was a burden and probably the thought of going alone to South Africa was too much for her to take.

On top of all this my beautiful car got towed away and I lost it... bailiffs were knocking at the door...the gas had been turned off and it was freezing in the house...( there was a leak on the street)...and on top of all this we were living in one room and homeschooling the kids...it was a nightmare.... the final argument came when my wife threatened to falsely accuse me of child abuse ( in front of a witness) to get out of the marriage if I didn't divorce her.

And so I had exposed -finally – the crux- she had shown her true colours... what exactly was in her heart... she wanted OUT!...AND she was willing to do anything to achieve her goal short of outright cold blooded murder.

But she didn't have the courage to act alone. She needed believers... she needed support. So unbeknownst to me she invited her sister to come from Spain to help her to get out of the marriage and fit me up. In the meantime she faked another nervous breakdown...this happened on February the 1st , 2008 -( a Friday)...
Whilst I genuinely believed she was actually having her 19th nervous breakdown ( all due to the mind-games we were playing with each other)...quite miraculously … she recovered only 4 days later and even went with her sister to Thorpe Park and had a whale of a time to celebrate her victory at convincing the social services and the police that she was an “ abused woman escaping extreme domestic violence”- she was a very good actor... and she played her part well. She even had me fooled.

What I do know is that the day after I was arrested I saw her in the social services office and she looked 1000% A no. 1 OK... This tells me she was definitely faking it!!!

She was a great actor. Even I couldn't tell when she was lying and when she was telling the truth- and I had lived with her for 12 years!- In fact on Sunday , February 3rd I canceled my trip to Egypt to focalise the 2nd Oriental Rainbow gathering in Bir El Ugda.

When I was praying about whether I should go or not... the word came to me... “ in sickness and in health” - I didn't want to be accused of not looking after my wife in her hour of need – and Ewelina actually said that Sunday Morning 3rd February, 2008- “ stay with me Robin- please...dont go... I need you!”... But it was just another ruse to ensure I stuck around so I could get arrested and thrown out of the house “ officially” … and when that happened... it was OPEN season... OPEN war.

I remember two family “ war” movies In both it was tit for tat that escalated until they nearly kill each other... - The Smiths and the War of the Roses... they both express how the war of the dentons escalated from nothing...

It got dirty – as it always inevitably does- why – because of pride- and because theres children involved...the war of the dentons was a microcosm of the war in the Holy Land- two people fighting over the right to have custody of the children...and the blessing... the land. To posses the land – in an esoteric sense what happened to our family was prophetic in every possible way.

And its happening to many many couples ALL OVER THE WORLD... each and every day.... the difference is that the government is supposed to act as a benevolent adjudicator – and mediator – In my case it operated as a malevolent and absolute fascist manner.

The truth is the justice system has been poisoned by “ God – Haters”...Secular Extremists-This certainly is not only dangerous – but also undemocratic and extremely hypocritical … I will go into this in my analysis of the trial.

On February 5th after spending the night riding on night buses in shock from Trafalgar Square and back -I finally found refuge from the cold in Northwick Park Hospital on the 13 th floor on the stairwell. I used cardboard on the cold concrete floor and tried to recover some strength. Outside it was too cold to sleep. Later that morning I went to pray at the St Josephs Cathedral and to light a candle for my family.

I then went to the Social Services ( the SS) and met up with Yvonne Lewers – another feminist bigot- ( most social workers are both female and sexist towards men- its an endemic problem – the only males are usually compliant wimps or gay)...few are willing to challenge the politcal agenda that steers the social services in the UK- either because they themselves will be ganged up on and targetted or labelled misoygnist...or simply overlooked when promotion time comes around. Its corrupt to the core and has led to several abuses of chidlren - the most famous of course..is Baby P... it was thought there was failures in the ssytem..but no one dared say ..WHAT the exact failure in the system was...ie this attitude of discrimination against men. That women are simply suffering from depression and its OK. The chidlren maky have brusies but the abuse will in the main be overlooked if its a woman. Thats how he cuuture has been in the UK for more than 20 years. It is changing as more of these abuses are exposed and more people are coming forward...but it will take a long time for true justice to come...if at all!

At around 12 pm I saw Ewelina march into the Social Services arrogant and aggressively with her sister Ursula right behind her...all signs of her “ breakdown” gone. She was with Anastasia and Jeremias- Jeremias on seeing me rushed up to hug me – but I drew back from him as I wasn't allowed to hug him ( no contact order as a bail condition)...thats how evil the system is... it drives a wedge between family members – even when your completely innocent of any wrongdoing. Thats how cruel those that run the machine are... they create victims...I felt like someone was stabbing a knife into my heart ...but this was only the beginning of my nightmare.
The next day I got a phone-call from a friend who says that Ewelina's wicked sisters ( Ursula sienczak and Ella baran) were burning my things in the garden- tearing up all the photos and dumping all my possessions on the pavement.
They even had the audacity to try to bribe the local gardener ( a friend of mine- Michael)to Take all my stuff to the local tip-the dump. Thankfully he refused.

On the 6th February my friend form Rumania collected what was left ( about 20 garbage bags) and we sorted through it all in the ASDA carpark...I felt angry and humiliated. But more than that , I felt pity for my wife and tried to fathom what kind of evil spirit , what kind of madness would lead her to do such a terrible thing.

I cried for her , for my broken home...and especially for my children... and what they were suffering.
The next day – the 7th of February, 2008 my children were bundled into a taxi along with their mother crying and begging her- ( I was told this by a witness)- My youngest – Nicole was crying : “ Wheres my daddy?!- Wheres my daddy?...”

Had I been born such a terrible man – a bad father... I don't think they would have shed a tear for me.... but they did. They did.

The following day ( 8th Feb) I called the arresting officer via my solicitors He said: “ Its not my problem – I'm not bothered!” This is how callous and cruel the police are in this country. When you're falsely accused -you're guilty until proven innocent...all you have to do is convince a mug copper to believe you and bingo...you're a for away.!…

I tried talking to my sister-in -laws “ Christian” Pastor – Billy Boy Reid- an ex con himself. But he wasnt interested in reconciliation- he had already judged and sentenced me without trial... but even more was to come.

I had now been rooted out of my home- separated from my wife and kids...all my possessions scattered to the four winds....including most of my tools- ( some I manged to recover)...and accused FALSELY...of Child Rape. The most heinous accusation any man- any father could possibly endure. By this time my wife and children had been moved to a womans refuge in Croydon.

Even as I was collecting my thoughts and trying to rebuild – she was being re- programmed by resident militant feminists and schooled in the art of the fit up. Even the founder of the womens refuge movement has publicly stated that it isn't right for vulnerable women to fall under the power of butch feminists intent on using them as pawns in their own movies.
I was staying with my uncle in Sussex and the stress was so bad I was hitting a bottle of malt whisky a day... ( I emptied Uncle Ron's 20 year collection- every bottle!) This went on for around 2 months- heavy drinking until I finally had enough strength to start rebuilding my business.

This meant I had to travel on a train 5 hours every day from Sussex to Wembley...It was very hard.
However, within a month I had manged to buy a car and find a storage shed for my tools. I had no idea of course what was going on behind the scenes until much later.

I must also mention here that I had just come out of another surgical operation on my knee. The accident in Uganda in October 2007 had ripped my ligament completely and the doctors had to graft part of my hamstring under my thigh to repair the ACL injury.

Consequently,I was on crutches and doing physio for about two months afterwards. The operation took place in Middlesex Hospital on February 25th , 2008. It was during this painful transition time that I was helped by an “angel”- Natalie Wolthenstome. She was handicapped herself A mighty woman of God who grew up in an orphanage. She triumphed over adversity – hostility and immobility and this woman took me in. I slept on the couch and every night we prayed. She nursed me and fed me and looked after me throughout this hard and lonely time. May God bless her!

My Uncle Ronald- a farmer turned gardener and salt of the Earth did the same. It was during these hard months that support came from the most unexpected quarters. Some of my gardening clients looked after my tools in their sheds.... some others drove me from job to job- even when I was barely able to walk. The local Sikh hardware shop gave me a line of credit...and slowly I recovered from my apocalyptic disaster.

But this was only a lull before the storm... it was only the beginning of what was to come....

You see, it was the faith of those that believed in me that made all the difference and made me see it through when times got hard....and those people still do- God bless every one of them!
At this time many thoughts were running through my head... all my life Ive run from trouble and persecution... but after spending a few weeks on a working holiday in Mariupol in the Ukraine- I realised LOVE is something you must fight for...strive for... stand for.

Besides I've always run on rocket fuel and I've always been a bit of a daredevil... I love a good scrap- a challenge... Evel Knievel was my hero and role model when I was growing up in Canada in the 70s.
And...I love adventure- the unpredictable matrix- whether its climbing a mountain like Kilimanjaro or Everest- meeting rebels from the Congo or sailing through Atlantic storms and 3 storey high waves...!

I recall driving from London to Jerusalem on a peace caravan...without a spare tyre I might add...When I met up with the son of the head rabbi of Israel having a barbecue on the Saturday night after shabbat- he heard my story translated to him and said: “ The messiah is coming soon!

But thats my life. After a few weeks teaching English and partying – I realized Ukraine was not for me in the long run. It was a good thing I left in the end a sI was being set up by the local mafia ( for kidnapping and ransom)...and a conman form New Zealand called Mitch Mitchinson... claimed he knew Ho chin Minh of Vietnam and many others in the steel industry.

Thats another story in itself.

I kept my bail date on the 1st of May, 2008 and again on the 1st of August .2008- I was on bail for nearly 9 months. Eventually, I got my computer and a few notebooks back. The police had nothing on me but were hoping I would lose my cool- its called “ bull-baiting” - in these family cases – they know how to wind up the men and they just add extra charges on the sheet to strengthen their case. You may be totally innocent of the main charges but because you were guilty on the minor fit-up charges the jury see you as guilty of the whole thing... they link up your credibility with the wind up charges.

Unfortunately for me – I did lose it... not totally – but partially... I couldn't find my center....I was so confused and disorientated by the shock of losing everything... Sometimes I would get in a bus or on a train ...and not know where I was... I would suddenly find myself in Brighton or Hove without realizing it. I felt like someone had ripped the heart from my body.... it came to a nexus point ...a head... on May 31st, 2008.

I was awoken by a phonecall from my son at around 0826am I believe. At first I couldn't believe it. I realised after the call that my children were being emotionally abused , brainwashed, blackmailed and traumatized and “ schooled” in the refuge to hate things all male- and all things relating to their father. It was totally evil. Totally wrong...but totally “ legal”.

In fact in an interview with the Brent Social services I questioned the social worker directly- I said: “ Why haven't you had my daughter medically examined ?” ( this after the fake rape allegation of my ex wife)

This occurred at 14h00pm on February 5th , 2008 in the Children's & Families Services of Brent.

She ( Yvonne Lewers )-replied: “ It would be too traumatic- painful and intrusive !”

-yet despite this assertion – my daughter was indeed medically examined. The line manager stated that my family were being held in the refuge because of “ extreme domestic violence”- not I might add … alleged sexual abuse! And that it was... wait for it... “ in the best interests of the children

This is the bog standard response . I was not informed about the general welfare of my children – even when I laid an official complaint to the director himself- my solicitor was completely out of his depth and couldn't remedy the matter either.
It was in that context that my “ friend” Kasper Rucinski sent the hat to the refuge. The truth is that they were trying to justify their illegal abduction- kidnapping of my children and their immoral smearing of my reputation and violation of my human rights under article 8.

Not to mention those of my daughters.

In fact at this stage the arresting officer had major egg on his face- and he needed something else to nail me with... he needed a “ motivated complainant” … a complainant who was willing to lie barefaced in an open court – with conviction and determination and her hand on the bible... the police and social serives easily manged that by saying ...” you either tell “ the truth” or go to jail and lose your kids!”(...our truth by the way- the fit up truth)

At this point I could take it no more. I could not ignore a cry for help from my son. He was being brainwashed daily into believing I had done terrible bad thing.... I learned later on that this is called “ parental alienation syndrome” - Its when the children are used like pawns in a chess game. I refused to play this game of “ monkey in the middle” - instead I said to my so...
these things are not true – pray for your mother – look after everyone – you're the man of the house now- go to school my son- make me proud- I love you!”

I must say here categorically my son did not give me the address of the refuge. He is innocent. Yet he was pressurized to say he did- I knew my family were in Croydon...that much the Social Services were willing to tell me. Otherwise they treated me like I'd come from another planet...I was told to “Be reasonable”...
That was the last straw that broke the camels back...I went on a criminal damage rampage spraypainting and blogging my way into a place I could not escape from... thats what rage will do to you... its about learning to transform it into passion.
On September 1st against all odds I sued my wife for divorce on the grounds of “unreasonable behavior” - and took out a contact order( at the Family High Court in High Holborn) – my wife came to court with DC Wedger – and the judge deferred the case to October – On September 11th I was again arrested . This time on allegations of rape- assault- and intimidation.... the next day I was charged and remanded into custody...bail was refused thanks to Ewelina's evil Co- Conspirator- Marie Simmonds- Parnes.

The first 3 weeks I spent in the segregation block of HMP Wormwood Scrubs. I was then transferred to HMP Brixton . The case was set for trial in March 2009.

On the 17th October, 2008 whilst I was in the library; I was attacked

























































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Chapter Three :The War of the Dentons

( Countdown to an Execution) : A chronology of Events

To put this complex narrative into some kind of order ; I've decided to enlighten the reader to what happened and when. What happened was a gradual escalation of events that broke out into OPEN WAR! This was no ordinary marriage and family breakdown, nor your average acrimonious divorce and custody struggle- this was a bloodfeud- a war- a v for vendetta !This war sucked in more and more people into its vortex as time went on; until the spiral of disaster led to a crown court trial...and from there it descended into the darkest abyss!

My ex wife knew what she wanted from the outset of this “ war of the Dentons” in February 2008. She wanted revenge...revenge...revenge...pure and simple. In Slavic cultures its called “ duvka” or vendetta unto death...In practical terms it was a struggle for power- domination- control...but also of hate -revenge- and cursing.... it was very personal.

Throughout the Balkans – and even in small villages in Anatolia; these feuds sometimes go back hundreds if not thousands of years- sometimes ending in genocide and ethnic cleansing...but these blood feuds whether its emanating from the enmity of the children of Ishmael towards the children of Isaac or the descendants of Jacob against Esau are all deeply rooted in tribal psyches..and not only was my wife tribal- but she was also primal.

“ Hell hath no fury than a woman scorned!”

As a Christian believer I am supposed to lay aside these things and strive for a higher path. Jesus says we should LOVE our enemies – BLESS those who curse us; and PRAY for those who persecute us. What this means is by not taking up the sword , I become the victim... my strategy was to HOPE that through the courts this family dispute  or feud would be resolved.

But as time progressed I began to realize that I had been targetted for persecution and for prosecution. This is why its vital to understand the sequence of events that took place in chronological order.

I shall begin with my wifes affair – we were renting a 10 bedroom house in Wembley from 2004-2006.It was there that my ex wife befriended a lodger from Slovakia named Jan Hic.

There was at this time another Polish female lodger called Dominika Szechplik – she was a pretty loose woman about 28 years old who had slept with most of the single men in the house and her Asian employers. One day she came to me and said she fancied this guy called Jan- Jan was a charismatic suave looking guy with a questionable background who claimed he had been in the French Foreign legion- he was a bit of a conman- but he paid the rent. I could see he had leadership capacity and watched his movements with interest.
I introduced Jan to Dominika and they had a one night stand. I even gave him a lift to Dominica's place ( she had moved out) where he stayed the night-

The next day she started bragging to my wifes sister ( Elzbieta -Ella-Baran) and to my wife Ewelina about what wonderful sex she had had and how large his penis was... And to be fair this guy was a smooth customer. Later on I noticed my wife and Jan flirting with each other- she had done this before in Israel with a Dutch guy- but I tried to ignore it and give it no energy.

I must say with ALL my heart my wife – my wife was NEVER lonely- sad maybe – but NEVER lonely. She had at least 15-20 people or more coming and going everyday in and out of the house...many people to talk to plus she had her children and her friends and family. No,this was a pure case of sexual attraction- fatal attraction- she just fancied him pure and simple. The only thing missing in this scenario was the opportunity to have a fullon liason- and the place to do it in.... before too long the universe provided both time- place and opportunity.

In December 2005 I took another house in Wembley. We moved there as a family in 2006 – January ...it was a great blessing from God – I took the opportunity to take my son on a holiday to Sinai- Egypt. All my wife had to do was close up our affairs in the 10 roomed house and move to our new home. We had money … we were prospering... my wife was neither sad nor lonely.

Later she claimed she did it so I would divorce her for adultery. The truth is she felt ashamed and guilty for her betrayal at a moment when things were very well for our family. The kids were going to school- we were making money and everyone was healthy and happy.

This feeling of worthlessness and guilt stemmed form her adultery – not because as she claimed because of the anal sex or domestic violence. This is rubbish.

Looking back now I probably should not have gone to Egypt when I did- it was a transitional time from one home to another...we had problems with the Pakistani landlord Mr Choudry who didn't want to return our deposit and the lodgers were giving us trouble as well. She probably couldn't handle the extra stress. I must say this- this room renting business was her responsibility- it was something for her to do and I wanted her to learn how to run a household. From my part I acknowledge my mistake... but it certainly was not motivated form selfishness.
I felt at the time that she had enough support to get through this crisis alone. I was only gone for 6 weeks. I had instructed a friend Mr. Leslie Lubelle ( the next door neighbor) to watch over the place- and my wife...In fact my last words before I left for Frankfurt for Sharm El Sheikh were :

“ Ewelina, if you cant handle things – I will cancel my mission immediately!”

My mission to Egypt was extremely successful – I organized the 1st World Healing Retreat in the Middle East – made a short film entitled “ Into The Rubicon” and spent quality time bonding with my son Jeremias.

2006 was a year where many of my dreams came true. Dreams I had been working on for years over 20 years in fact. I was a convener – a “ focaliser”of rainbow peace& love  gatherings- Juggling those commitments with work and family life was very difficult. It meant sacrifice. But I believed that my primary vocation was as an evangelist – Ewelina my wife knew this was the man she had fell in love with and married- I was a Christian, a Rainbow Warrior and traveler long before I met her. It was already in my DNA. Perhaps it was selfish...perhaps even egocentric...but that is the nature of a man...a man must do what a man must do...
Throughout history “ selfish- egotistic” men from Buddha -Jesus and Mohammed to Richard The Lionheart, Alexander the Great to Adolf Hitler- Mahatma Gandhi to Nelson Mandela- Einstein to Martin Luther King – Howard Hughes to Neil Armstrong-Abraham Lincoln-JFK- Robin Knox Johnson to Sir Edmund Hillary and Roald Amundsen and David Livingstone- David Attenborough- William the Conqueror and William Carey...Oscar Wilde- John Bunyan- Leo Tolstoy – Louis Pasteur- Elon Musk and yes- even Trotsky... all great men and women have shared a common fire that burns in their hearts to accomplish their destiny- what the universe has planet deep within their souls.
All great persons strive to express their greatness. And this often means they have to make difficult personal decisions. Decisions that lead them often to bankruptcy- ridicule- imprisonment- divorce-martyrdom- exile and even assassination and death. Choices that separate them from their loved ones, their freedom and acceptance from mainstream society... this is what really distinguishes a GREAT man from a FAILED man...his drive – his sacrifice...and yes, even his ego. But it is these true actions of a driven man that turn mediocrity into sheer greatness and indeed ...history itself.
Being normal for a driven man is never an option and if it were so human achievement would remain undiscovered- potential untapped and exploits uncommon...
So are these actions done for the “greater good” , selfish...egotistical- NO! … they are HONEST!

There is no greater crime than a wasted life. Sometimes true courage requires great personal sacrifice. Someone has to do it. If not you- then WHO?!- if not NOW...then WHEN?!

And it is in this context that I acted to organise these peace gatherings in Egypt- Jordan-Turkey- England – Russia and South Africa. I had been involved in the Rainbow Movement for 25 years and as an evangelist and activist my goals and agenda define my destiny. How I live is important to me. As a family man I was also committed by a covenant I had made to God to honor my marriage and my family. I had provided for my children and my wife as any man would...

2006 was a busy year. After Egypt I focalised meetings in Turkey- Bosnia- Altai-England- Spain- and Jordan. The England Gathering was a very difficult one and took a year of constant monthly meetings every full moon and almost daily communications via the Internet -face to face and telephone... at the same time I was concerned about my son Jeremias as he was being bullied at school.

I had also started a blog for airships and an association based in Berlin ( “ AIRSHIPWORLD”)
My wife began to feel she was a bit part in this movie I was in... although she did design the invitation of the England gathering. These feelings of inadequacy eventually turned into envy- jealousy-frustration and yes...even resentment and hatred. She felt she was losing control of her life and her children...and she felt the need to dominate and control me as a result. She would stand at the bottom of the stairs every night in her silk nightgown and call me up to bed to have sex with her... demanding me to come... but I simply did not feel like it... I was dealing with my own demons ( midlife crisis- bills etc)-
I started to put on weight – drinking more- and arguing with my wife over trivial things...sex became boring- instead I converted my sexual energy into my work as a gardener and the time on the computer increased... we were going in separate directions each day... trust was no longer there... subconsciously I felt far away form my wife... a marriage breakdown usually builds up over time its rarely a 5 minute thing. My wife all this time was hiding the affair from me.

In August 2006 I hired a bus and set up camp in Yorkshire near Skipton. The Rainbow Gathering attracted about 5000 over the month and a half that it was going on... they came from all over the world and from all over the British isles. I set up the “ Jesus Camp” with a 12 man tent I had recently bought for the purpose. A missionary group called “ The Family” joined us. It was at this gathering that two important events took place which later had a bearing on my prosecution.

The first event was a fight my wife had with another woman who claimed she was a witch and that Christianity had ruined her life- and her sons life. She stole the flags we had put up and a fight then ensued.
The second event was the twisting of my knee whilst doing a Zulu Dance in the main food circle after the meal. I had to in fact be carried off on a stretcher to the tent I was staying in. On the way there I was being attended by two doctors from Austria and Germany. I couldn't walk it was that painful.
My daughter Anastasia saw me in pain and thought I was going to die- she said: “ If my daddy dies and goes to Jesus , I wanna go with him...I don't want to live without my daddy!” She was crying for her father and it touched my heart very deeply as nothing else that could.

To a father and daughter with this level of love between them – this was the greatest honor I could possibly hope for and I even started to cry- not from the pain( even though it was great)- from the love she had for me. And to a jealous wife looking on... this was the start of the envious – possessive seed that began to germinate in the heart of my wife and to which I shall refer to at a later stage.

When I returned to London I went to the doctor who recommended an Xray and a possible surgical procedure. After around tow weeks I felt better enough to wlak and decided to risk going to the Altai Mountains in Siberia. I thought the wound would heal and I would be fit enough to endure this trip despite my recent injury. I also went to visit some old friends in Moscow and to sign a contract for an agency deal for Rosaero systems to sell their products in Africa.

Early in October , 2006 I returned from Russia. I recall twisting my knee on a walk in the Altai mountains whilst trying to view Mount Belucha in Kazakhstan- in fact I recall twisting my knee again in the living room( on my return from Russia )-whilst dancing to a Victor Tsoi song. I recall beign advised by my doctor to rest and support the knee and NOT to exert the left knee in any way.  This was crucial evidence that was very important and was NEVER used at my trial depsite my instructions to my solicitor Daryl Ingram & Co. They just did not care...in fact my own solicitor thought I was guilty and didn't go the extra mile on purpose!

So the inept barrister – Laura Brickman and the bigot judge both didn't give a damn whether or not I got a fair trial... it was all a frame up...a conspiracy... they were simply going through the motions.

On or about Friday , October 6th , 2006 my wife confessed to an affair lasting around 6 months. She confessed to this affair after I had confessed to having a one night stand with a Russian doctor.

It was decided – amicably I might add... that the state of our marriage was at boiling point ; and my wife agreed to stay with a friend for a few days... ( Marie Donata)- Despite everything said against me – I did not beat her or strike her...I simply needed time to digest these revelations – I may have said...”Thats it – from today no more domestic violence-”- (meaning I did not want to solve the problem violently as she might have expected I would- why because she expected a reaction- and I simply would not give her the pleasure- I was tired.)...My wife returned the next day- begging me to take her back... she said: “ If you send me away – I'll understand – only let me see the children from time to time!”

I thought about it for a moment ( it was a Saturday morning): “ Ewelina, you are the mother of the children- how could I possibly send you away?”
She asked me what she should do. I responded by saying : “ Ewelina , I forgive you ; but I want you to cut from this man...delete his number and his email...and I want to know all the details of your affair.” She agreed...we kissed and I let her in the house again.

But the truth is she didn't tell me the whole truth at all. She continued to lie. She had slept with this guy in a local travel lodge and in a local park ( she even took me to the bench where they had made love)- but it turned out to be a fabrication... I believed her... she said she had made love – on a cold February night... on a public park bench!She said she was drunk at the time.

At the time I wanted to believe her. I tried to move into the place of forgiveness- but something inside me didn't believe her...I felt less and less sexually attracted to her as the days went by. It is important to note here that the real truth only came out next year in May 2007. This never came out at trial. It was like everything exonerating me ...suppressed.

This is an important incident as it shows that the prosecutions assertions were wrong ….its simple.... a wife commits adultery in a hotel is less likely to cause outrage as an affair committed in the marital home and in the marital bed- defiling both. By deduction a crime of passion is the motivation of an  alleged rape..

There were arguments in our marriage- just like any marriage.... there were accusations and counter accusations... but there was NO rape...nor was there extreme domestic violence – certainly not on my part. The days following her confession were an attempt to strengthen and normalise relations...we went to church that Sunday ( Oct 8th) – I took the kids out of school on the Mnday and Tuesday ( because I felt we needed healing family time)- We went on a Tuesday to Alton Towers , its a 5 hour journey there and back....and , there were multiple bumpy rollercoaster rides... and yes...I even video taped our outing...( with Ewelina having long hair)...My barrister,Laura Brickman and solicitor- Sarj Patel even got that fact wrong!...that was crucial because they showed the video at the trial...but it wasn't dated!- I've made a timeline which will put it all into perspective.

In the bedroom things were not normal...but I didn't beat her as she claimed I did ( we had lodgers and they would have heard it- our walls were thin plasterboard)... and I certainly didn't rape her...I do  remember when we had consensual anal sex – it was probably around the first or second week of October , 2006. As I had mentioned earlier; it was something we had talked about doing for years...but had never tried.

 After the affair was out on the open we agreed to actively try to improve our sex life – and it was agreed that we would try anal sex to start off with. It was with the idea of spicing up our marriage and adding a new dimension to our bedroom life. I will go into this in detail at a later stage.

What I can say for sure was that the affair was the catalyst for this “ new deal” in the bedroom. My wife consented to six acts of anal sex because she “ deserved it-I dont know if this was just pillow talk to get me excited or if she actually believed what she was saying...I realize now that she probably meant it.

The reason it was the number six is because she confessed she had slet with this guy six times. My wife also consented to oral sex for the very first time in our marriage. This occurred around January 2007 after my return from Jordan.  During this time she had exposed herself on skype – showing her boobs to me – and dared me to “ punish her”...again, I will go into this at a later stage.
Following the chronology of events after I returned from Russia I remember my knee needed medical attention- I went to the doctor and I bought a knee brace...X- RAYS will confirm this( in fact I got the x rays form the hospital but again- this evidence was suppressed) … and here comes the point...a brutal- sustained and VIOLENT sexual act that puts strain on a severely injured knee would have been practically impossible as I was already in pain having injured it the previous week. In fact some time later I needed an ACL operation because the ligament was actually torn.

On the evening of the 12th October my ex wife awoke in the middle of the night – went to the dresser table – took a pair of large scissors from the drawer ...and then in complete darkness … she cut off all her hair.

In the morning when she realized what she had done and saw her short hair... she looked at me in shock and said: “ Robin- why did you cut my hair? “ I replied: “ Ewelina...you cut your own hair...I didn't cut it....!”



At first she didn't believe me ...I then described to her what had happened – she then said: “ The devil made me do it... “I'm sick Robin...take me to mental hospital...I need to go to hospital for sick people!” At this point her eyes were bulging out of her sockets like a goldfish... the pupils were dilated ...and I was scared and confused. I honestly did not know what to do. At this point I phoned a Dr. Peter Parnes who is supposed to be a psychologist , a criminal psychologist... he recommended I take her immediately to a GP. ( General practitioner)...and this is what I did...

 I could have taken her to the nearby Northwick Park A &E and they would have probably sectioned her for 30 days if I had told them what I had witnessed in that bedroom. But I didn't...I kept my mouth shut. Dr Parnes failed to give a statement corroborating this which undermined my defense... he was afraid of the negative publicity if I was convicted...that after I looked after his son for 5 years....!

So I took my wife to the doctors rooms of Dr Jilali – but Ewelina refused to get out of the Suzuki I was driving... Eventually I persuaded the doctor to come out to the car and speak to her... this was on Friday, October 13th, 2006. Later I too my wife to a proper hairdressers in Golders Green and some Albanian hairdressers charged me £40 for the privilege.

My only conclusion after all of this was that my wife was feeling an overwhelming – and I might add -warranted sense of worthlessness and guilt over the affair- why? Because the Holy Spirit had convicted her of her sin and she had lied to me and to the Holy Spirit... she had sinned against the Holy Spirit rather than come clean once and for all with the full truth. And once she had done it once... she continued on this path...this is why she felt guilty and worthless.

 SHE HAD A DEVIL IN HER THAT WOULDNT COME OUT AND WOULDNT TELL THE TRUTH!AN EVIL SPIRIT. SHE WAS POSSESSED! ( Again – I will address this later on in the book in detail)

Despite her strange behavior and requests to be admitted into a mental institution ; I believed all she needed was some rest. I then told my wife we should take off our wedding rings until we could renew our marriage vows...in fact a pastor Uche and his wife agreed to marry us in his church we were attending- joyful assemblies.

I at this time thought it was best and better to do it on our return to Africa. We then made a plan to return to South Africa and become full-time missionaries with a Christian group called YWAM- ( Youth with a Mission)

In fact we even bought a wedding dress. I bought my wife some jewelery in Israel from a boutique shop- red ruby crystal I think it was – a beautiful necklace for the love of my life.  We went to the theater ...dinner... we went to see the comedy play- “ The Producers” a play based on the movie written by Mel Brooks ( “Springtime for Hitler & Germany!“)...

In January 2007 Ewelina visited a psychiatrist for the first time. I was in Jordan a the 1st Oriental Rainbow Gathering ...it was a complete success. I took my son with me and he throughly enjoyed it... learning bush-craft and a few magic tricks from some Japanese travelers.... everyone loved Jeremias...(He loved climbing and walking and I wanted to school him in leadership)- and even lately when I returned to the Holy Land after 6 years – they asked me: “Wheres your son?” All I could say was: “ I don't know!- I haven't seen him for over 5 years!”

In February 2007 I went to South Africa to initiate the process of our return- I spent nearly 2 months in Africa preparing the way. I bought a Mercedes Benz in Cape Town and drove it up to Durban- I scouted possible homes and made connections with some local ministries- all in preparation for our imminent emigration. In March of 2007 I returned to England. Everything was going well and it seemed even our relationship was beginning to improve.

It was on my return from Africa that Ewelina dropped another bombshell. She had brought her lover or lovers to the marital bed. She had defiled the marital home and bed. She had not told the truth about the affair despite being asked to. Arguments inevitably ensued. We tried marriage counseling – Ewelina had one of her “ breakdowns”- this time I suggested she go for a holiday to Spain. She did.

I tried to look introspectively to see if I were the one putting too much strain on Ewelina...I came to the conclusion that she needed a break to recharge her batteries. I honestly don't know what she was telling was true and what was not... she had a problem confronting the truth... she would rather lie about it and play the victim that tell the truth- that is and always has been ...her character... and I must admit... shes a damn good liar! She certainly fooled me.

It was during this time that my relationship with my daughter grew and I began to show her more attention and love as her father. Anastasia in character was very much like me. Impetuous, fierce,passionate...original. But also a stubborn and strong personality. Our bond as Father and daughter grew ever deeper during this time when the bond of trust between my wife and I began to deteriorate. I simply could not believe anything my wife said as I kept finding out something new which she had “ forgotten “ to tell me. Her later excuse was that she was afraid of me that I would hurt her... this of course was totally untrue.

I JUST DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE ANYMORE.

I felt increasingly cold towards Ewelina my relationship with Anastasia grew closer- and this in turn empowered Anastasia to become more assertive with my wife when she was bullied. When Ewelina began feeling dis-empowered she began to grow envious and jealous of my ( natural ) relationship of paternal love with my daughter. In fact she felt more and more insecure within herself and more and more jealous and possessive to anything and anyone I gave my love and my attention to...even my computer!
She sought to manipulate- dominate and control me and my children through her abusive behavior and frequent mental breakdowns bipolar episodes... as a result we as a family all suffered from her emotional, physical and mental domestic violence.

I will go into this into finer detail later on in another chapter.

My wife returned refreshed from Spain. I continued to work as a gardener in my company “ Shalom Gardens”...my knee seemed to have healed so I decided not to go for an operation...

Around August I went to Bosnia and Croatia. I again furthered my peace-work and visions for peace in the Balkans. I also assisted to bring about the vision of an Iberian Rainbow Family. On my return I decided it was time we prepared in earnest for our imminent  return to South Africa.

We started by visiting a Christian Homeschooling Academy in Swindon. My wife was in complete agreement with me and came to the seminar to learn more. Later on we started our own “ Rainbow School in our living room... I'll come to that later.

In October, 2007 I went to Kenya – Uganda and Tanzania...on a mission to help save a childrens home in the townships of Kampala. The mission was successful and it was documented on my sony video camera...Later this event was used against me to strengthen the argument that I was a paedophile( sic).
This trip to East Africa was the groundwork of my future plans in the region to create a Volunteers Hostel Franchise.

My initial vision for Uganda was to purchase a large tract of farmland to set up an ecovillage and community. I believed and still do that East Africa is a key place to developing greater understanding of the human condition and its relationship with the Earth and all its beings.
My vision included the set up of an International Volunteer Hostel and Peace Academy in the foothills of Kilimanjaro near Arusha in Tanzania. To this effect I had meetings with prominent businessmen and politicians including the ex Minister of Education of Uganda- I met them through my contact with GEM – a global network of entrepreneurs and educators.

It was at this meeting at the Hotel Speke where I was to meet with Dr. Babu that I stepped offf the pavement and into a pothole- the streetlighting was not very good... and promptly ruptured my left knee completely. I was in terrible pain and could not even get up off the ground. Fortunately , a Japnese student and her friend came to assist me and I carried off the meeting by controlling the pain with a few double gins and tonic and paracetamol.

The following day I got on the bus to Mombassa and back to Britain. I was in a lot of pain.

On my return to the UK I went straight to the doctor- he urged immediate surgery as I had ruptured  a ligament in my left knee- its called an ACL injury. ( Accruciated ligament)- Initially I had an arthroscopy in early November at the Northwick Park Hospital.

Definition:

arthroscopy (also called arthroscopic surgery) is a minimally invasive surgical procedure in which an examination and sometimes treatment of damage of the interior of a joint is performed using an arthroscope, a type of endoscope that is inserted into the joint through a small incision. Arthroscopic procedures can be performed either to evaluate or to treat many orthopaedic conditions including torn floating cartilage, torn surface cartilage, ACL reconstruction, and trimming damaged cartilage.


I was still deeply in love with my wife- despite all that had happened...there was no beatings as she has alleged. This was a fabrication. Our relationship was actually pretty good- she even bought me a computer an apple mac for £2000 from PC world.

I had made a vow to God to take this woman as my wife for better or for worse- for richer or for poorer...in sickness and health...til death do us part!...

It was however, a relationship of fire vs wind... earth vs water... we were as I understood it... one person- united by God in Holy Marriage- One flesh- indivisible. And our characters whilst at times poles apart- were grounded in our genuine love for our children and for each other. My would give her anything she asked me...except one thing... a divorce. I was prepared to work through any difference between us with the Love of God – grace and forgiveness....and a lot of patience and prayer. I was determined to keep the family together at all costs...even my own humiliation.

I had made a promise to God to love her as Christ loved the Church and to lay my life down for her if necessary...( but I wouldn't divorce her)...that day would soon come when that promise was tested and with it my faith in God.

In December 2007 , we went on a months family holiday in my Volvo to Poland. We spent a week in the small village of Nawynchov- we visited my wifes parents in Jacmierz- South Eastern Poland.
My thinking was thats since we were leaving Europe for good , it would be good for the children to see their grandparents – Josef and Kristina Sienczak for the last time.

I also believed we needed some family time together away from London and its pressures. It would be a time to heal any rifts between us. It was – however, not to be... my wifes fear of the future, her dark paranoid phobias and insecurities- her unstable thoughts and the demons that plagued her and fed into her psyche... all came to a head in a so called “ dream from God”.

At this point I still didn't fully trust my wife- I still believed she was hiding something from me... another dark secret.... perhaps another affair- perhaps a tale of child abuse...I didn't know what.
Maybe she didn't really want to serve God as a missionary in Africa after all. Perhaps she was planning something- We argued a lot and the arguments took their toll on both of us.

I kept telling her- begging her... “ STOP THIS WAR !”I said- “ tell me the truth.... what are you hiding form me...? In the end I realized if she wanted to continue playing mind games with me- I would too! And this was a whole new dimension of our marriage war.

The “War of the Dentons” had begun...

And so I led her on and fed into her paranoia and her fear... I mad eher belive all her fears were true.... perhaps then I could smoke her out I thought and she would blurt out the truth about who she was fucking behind my back!... who else...!

But she didn't …

Its true, I was also paranoid too... stressed ...and frankly losing my patience!- Who wouldn't – I was tired of these mind games. We were financially challenged too. We needed to make money for the journey- fast! Our marriage was on the point of collapse.... It was on the rocks... and we were struggling to save it.... Because of my knee injury , I was unable to do much physical work in the garden. I had been on and off crutches at various points since the initial injury in August of 2006.

Instead, we rented out an extra room in the house to make up for the shortfall. I went to Northwick Park hospital in January to do a medical trial with Paraxel- and almost got poisoned I might add. This medical trial was for a drug to help cocaine addicts – but they gave us too strong a dose and everyone vomited profusely... I earned £ 2100- even though I couldn't do physical work in the garden- I was determined to provide for my family... Ewelina could have also done a trial – But I never forced her or coerced her... it was always her decision. I did my job as the man of the house.

The airtickets to South Africa were booked for January 12th , 2008- out of Gatwick. We had planned that my wife and kids would fly out first- at the last moment our invite to YWAM was postponed. Friends said they couldn't help with accommodation and my parents of course...refused.

My wife got more paranoid and listened to “ friends” advice that I was trying to get rid of her...  take the kids and marry someone else waiting in the wings... “the final solution”- my wife felt she wasnt wanted and she wasn't appreciated – for whatever reason...and her inadequacy and jealousy- paranoia and fear turned into hostility and outright hate....she felt like she was a burden and probaly the thought of going alone to South Africa was too much for her to take.

On top of all this my beautiful car got towed away and I lost it... bailiffs were knocking at the door...the gas had been turned off and it was freezing in the house...( there was a leak on the street)...and on top of all this we were living in one room and homeschooling the kids...it was a nightmare.... the final argument came when my wife threatened to falsely accuse me of child abuse ( in front of a witness)  to get out of the marriage if I didn't divorce her.

And so I had exposed -finally – the crux- she had shown her true colours... what exactly was in her heart... she wanted OUT!...AND she was willing to do anything to achieve her goal short of outright cold blooded murder.

But she didn't have the courage to act alone. She needed believers... she needed support. So unbeknownst to me she invited her sister to come from Spain to help her to get out of the marriage and fit me up. In the meantime she faked another nervous breakdown...this happened on February the 1st , 2008 -( a Friday)...
Whilst I genuinely believed she was actually having her 19th nervous breakdown ( all due to the mind-games we were playing with each other)...quite miraculously … she recovered only 4 days later and even went with her sister to Thorpe Park and had a whale of a time to celebrate her victory at convincing the social services and the police that she was an “ abused woman escaping extreme domestic violence”- she was a very good actor... and she played her part well. She even had me fooled.

What I do know is that the day after I was arrested I saw her in the social services office and she looked 1000% A no. 1 OK... This tells me she was definitely faking it!!!

She was a great actor. Even I couldn't tell when she was lying and when she was telling the truth- and I had lived with her for 12 years!- In fact on Sunday , February 3rd I canceled my trip to Egypt to focalise the 2nd Oriental Rainbow gathering in Bir El Ugda. 

When I was praying about whether I should go or not... the word came to me... “ in sickness and in health” - I didn't want to be accused of not looking after my wife in her hour of need – and Ewelina actually said that Sunday Morning 3rd February, 2008- “ stay with me Robin- please...dont go... I need you!”... But it was just another ruse to ensure I stuck around so I could get arrested and thrown out of the house “ officially” … and when that happened... it was OPEN season... OPEN war.

I remember two family “ war” movies In both it was tit for tat that escalated until they nearly kill each other... - The Smiths and the War of the Roses... they both express how the war of the dentons escalated from nothing...

It got dirty – as it always inevitably does- why – because of pride- and because theres children involved...the war of the dentons was a microcosm of the war in the Holy Land- two people fighting over the right to have custody of the children...and the blessing... the land. To posses the land – in an esoteric sense what happened to our family was prophetic in every possible way.

And its happening to many many couples ALL OVER THE WORLD... each and every day.... the difference is that the government is supposed to act as a benevolent adjudicator – and mediator – In my case it operated as a malevolent and absolute fascist manner.

The truth is the justice system has been poisoned by “ God – Haters”...Secular  Extremists-This certainly is not only dangerous – but also undemocratic and extremely hypocritical … I will go into this in my analysis of the trial.

On February 5th after spending the night riding on night buses in shock from Trafalgar Square and back -I finally found refuge from the cold in Northwick Park Hosptial on the 13 th floor on the stairwell. I used cardboard on the cold concrete floor and tried to recover some strength. Outside it was too cold to sleep. Later that morning I went to pray at the St Josephs Cathedral and to light a candle for my family.

I then went to the Social Services ( the SS) and met up with Yvonne Lewers – another faminist bigot- ( most social workers are both female and sexist towards men- its an endemic problem – the only males are usually compliant wimps or gay)

At around 12 pm I saw Ewelina march into the Social Services arrogant and aggressively with her sister Ursula right behind her...all signs of her “ breakdown” gone. She was with Anastasia and Jeremias- Jeremias on seeing me rushed up to hug me – but I drew back from him as I wasn't allowed to hug him ( no contact order as a bail condition)...thats how evil the system is... it drives a wedge between family members – even when your completely innocent of any wrongdoing. Thats how cruel those that run the machine are... they create victims...I felt like someone was stabbing a knife into my heart ...but this was only the beginning of my nightmare.
The next day I got a phonecall from a friend who says that Ewelinas wicked sisters ( ursula sienczak and ella baran) were burning my things in the garden- tearing up all the photos and dumping all my possessions on the pavement.
They even had the audacity to try to bribe the local gardener ( a friend of mine- Michael)to Take all my stuff to the local tip-the dump. Thankfully he refused.

On the 6th February my friend form Rumania collected what was left ( about 20 garbage bagas) and we sorted through it all in the ASDA carpark...I felt angry and humiliated. But more than that , I felt pity for my wife and tried to fathom what kind of evil spirit , what kind of madness would lead her to do such a terrible thing.

I cried for her , for my broken home...and especially for my children... and what they were suffering.
The next day – the 7th of February, 2008 my children were bundled into a taxi along with their mother crying and begging her- ( I was told this by a witness)- My youngest – Nicole was crying : “ Wheres my daddy?!- Wheres my daddy?...”

Had I been born such a terrible man – a bad father... I dont think they would have shed a tear for me.... but they did. They did.

The following day ( 8th Feb) I called the arresting officer via my solicitors He said: “ Its not my problem – I'm not bothered!” This is how callous and cruel the police are in this country. When you're falsely accused -you're guilty until proven innocent...all you have to do is convince a mug copper  to believe you and bingo...you're a for away.!…

I tried talking to my sister-in -laws “ Christian” Pastor – Billy Boy Reid- an ex con himself. But he wasn't interested in reconciliation- he had already judged and sentenced me without trial... but even more was to come.

I had now been rooted out of my home- separated from my wife and kids...all my possessions scattered to the four winds....including most of my tools- ( some I manged to recover)...and accused FALSELY...of Child Rape. The most heinous accusation any man- any father could possibly endure. By this time my wife and children had been moved to a womans refuge in Croydon.

Even as I was collecting my thoughts and trying to rebuild – she was being re- programmed by resident militant feminists and schooled in the art of the fit up. Even the founder of the womens refuge movement has publicly stated that it isn't right for vulnerable women to fall under the power of butch feminists intent on using them as pawns in their own movies.
I was staying with my uncle in Sussex and the stress was so bad I was hitting a bottle of malt whisky a day... ( I emptied Uncle Ron's 20 year collection- every bottle!) This went on for around 2 months- heavy drinking until I finally had enough strength to start rebuilding my business.

This meant I had to travel on a train 5 hours every day from Sussex to Wembley...It was very hard.
However, within a month I had manged to buy a car and find a storage shed for my tools. I had no idea of course what was going on behind the scenes until much later.

I must also mention here that I had just come out of another surgical operation on my knee. The accident in Uganda in October 2007 had ripped my ligament completely and the doctors had to graft  part of my hamstring under my thigh to repair the ACL injury.

Consequently,I was on crutches and doing physio for about two months afterwards. The operation took place in Middlesex Hospital on February 25th , 2008. It was during this painful transition time that I was helped by an “angel”- Natalie Wolthenstome. She was handicapped herself A mighty woman of God who grew up in an orphanage. She triumphed over adversity – hostility and immobility and this woman took me in. I slept on the couch and every night we prayed. She nursed me and fed me and looked after me throughout this hard and lonely time. May God bless her!

My Uncle Ronald- a farmer turned gardener and salt of the Earth did the same. It was during these hard months that support came from the most unexpected quarters. Some of my gardening clients looked after my tools in their sheds.... some others drove me from job to job- even when I was barely able to walk. The local Sikh hardware shop gave me a line of credit...and slowly I recovered from my apocalyptic disaster.

But this was only a lull before the storm... it was only the beginning of what was to come....

You see, it was the faith of those that believed in me that made all the difference and made me see it through when times got hard....and those people still do- God bless every one of them!
At this time many thoughts were running through my head... all my life Ive run from trouble and persecution... but after spending a few weeks on a working holiday in Mariupol in the Ukraine- I realised LOVE is something you must fight for...strive for... stand for.

Besides Ive always run on rocket fuel and Ive always been a daredevil... I love a good scrap- a challenge... Evel Knievel was my hero and role model when I was growing up in Canada in the 70s.
I've always loved adventure- the unpredictable matrix- whether its climbing a mountain like Kilimanjaro or Everest- meeting rebels from the Congo or sailing












































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